I had a major mom fail moment last night. Krish woke up at 12 AM crying and we weren’t sure why, but he went back to sleep (he does this sometimes and just goes back to sleep). I sprung out of bed at 1 AM and realized that I never changed his diaper before I put him to bed. I was so focused on the end goal of having both kids in bed before 8 pm that I missed it entirely! I have several excuses like he was already in his PJs so maybe I thought Vijay changed it and I don’t usually do bedtime routine with Krish, but the reality of it is that I wasn’t being mindful during bedtime. I wasn’t present in the moment and was going through the motions. All I was thinking about was getting Krish to bed and cuddling on the couch with my hubby, a movie and glass of wine.
So I rushed into his room at 1 AM, woke him up and changed his diaper! He had a diaper rash of course so I smothered him in Aquaphor. I took him into my bed, held him and told him I was sorry. I told him that mommy makes mistakes too. Sometimes we are burnt out and just can’t wait to get that time to ourselves in the evening, but we need to remember to practice mindful parenting at all times and to live in the moment instead of rushing through the motions to get to the next step.
Luckily, kids are resilient and he loves me regardless this morning, but what’s more important is that I love myself and forgive myself. As much as I want to believe I’m supermom, I am only human!